Tuesday, March 23, 2010
oh no i really feel so emo ): i don't feel well at all, i feel so plain miserable and so upset that i've become like this sighh cos i never wanted to be like this ): i wanna be happy and cheery and optimistic and bubbly just like how i used to be (: i wanna be able to smile to myself for no good reason at all, and smile at random strangers on the street (: and feel super happy with myself even on days when there's nothing particularly happy happening (: laugh at every single small and stupid thing that ppl around me do (:
but i feel like i'm not like that anymore ): and all i wish for now is that someone would make me laugh and smile from the bottom of my heart and give me a really good reason to be happy for everyday that i'm here (: and understand me and know what i want and need (: and basically make me the happy girl i used to be ((: or even happier la haha xD
ah what i need is some endorphins now haha (: and haha can you believe it, i actually find that scratching my mosquito bites makes me momentarily damn happy and satisfied haha omg i think it's cos painful sensations release endorphins or sth?! ok can't really rmbr hehe it was sth like that la haha!
and hehe at least i got some laughs in the afternoon haha (: went for dms interview with shuyu after our lunch at mosburger xD and haha i dunno why we were both so hyper after lunch haha but i think the army guys there prob thot we were nuts or bimbs or sth haha oops! :p cos first thing we did when we saw the guard was to stare at his rifle hehe xD and then go "omg the rifle damn cool!!!" spontaneously! xD hehe dunno why it was so spontaneous hahah but for me i've always found rifles cool hehe :p and haha yaaa the guard was staring funnily at us haha oh no ): and then when we were exchanging our pass at the security counter, this shuyu suddenly started laughing like mad for no reason omg zzz so malu haha but quite funny also hehe and like i think we really looked mad hahahhaa :p and going up the lift to the office, we forgot which floor to go to! so we stared at the lift buttons super helplessly and then started laughing again cos we didn't know which button to press ahaha oh no and then the two uniformed guys in front of me turned and one of them stared at me with this damn intense look haha omg darn i think he wanted to shut both of us up haha :p and hehe i think uniformed ppl are really damn cool haha they look super cool in their uniforms haha! xD
and haha ya so basically that was about our crazy time there haha it was quite funny loll :D
and haha ok now it's back to stoning haha zzz!
